who are you?

kamu siapa? kenapa kamu tiba-tiba dateng ke hidupku? kamu siapa? kenapa kamu selalu care sama aku? kenapa kamu selalu ada saat aku butuh kamu? kamu siapa? kenapa aku nangisin kamu? kenapa aku ketawa bahagia karena kamu? kamu siapa? kenapa Tuhan mentakdirkan kita bertemu? kenapa? kamu siapa? kenapa aku gabisa jauh dari kamu? kenapa aku selalu ngerasa nyaman deket kamu? kamu siapa? kenapa kamu sedih kalo aku sedih? kenapa kamu seneng kalo aku bahagia? kamu siapa? kenapa tiba-tiba kamu ninggalin aku? kenapa?

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malam ini nggak beda sama malam malam sebelumnya iyaa nggak beda alias sama sama seperti perasaanku yang rindu akan sosokmu yang telah hilang kamu yang hilang bersama perasaanku perasaanku yang tak terjelaskan aku benci benci dengan keadaan yang seperti ini benci dengan sosokmu yang menghilang dari kehidupanku aku sadar aku tidak bisa membiarkanmu singgah lebih lama aku tidak bisa membuatmu bertahan dan mungkin sekarang aku tidak bisa melihatmu bersamanya aku tau aku bodoh cinta memang bisa membuat seseorang menjadi seperti bodoh dan itu yang aku rasakan sekarang tanpamu semuanya hampa semua berasa tanpa arti aku merindukanmu merindukan sosokmu yang telah lama hilang dan aku benci ketika semua hal mengingatkanku tentangmu membuatku seperti kehilangan akal tuk melupakanmu aku ingin semua kembali seperti semula sama seperti saat sebelum aku mengenalmu saat itu aku baik baik saja menjalani semuanya tapi aku tak menyesal mengenalmu dan pernah menjadi bagian hidupmu walaupun hanya sementara dan akhirnya aku harus merasakan sakit ini aku mohon bantu aku melupakan semua kenangan itu bantu aku untuk tetap bisa mielanjutkan hidupku seperti sedia kala aku lelah dibayang bayangi oleh masa lalu bersamamu I can't stay with this pain again because of you :')

MY 18th

hi all :) umm, on 2nd may pass I got my eighteen years old! yeay I'm so glad! I just wanna say thank you so much for my beloved JESUS cause HE always protect me until 18th years old. thanks for LORD who never leave me alone. thanks for my family, best friends, and all of my friend. thanks for all support to me. thanks for all greetings, prays, wishes, and gifts for me that i cant's mention it because that's so many things i get from all your loves to me! i love you all! do you know what's my wish? no? okay, but did you wanna know? no again? haha lol okay but i will keep mention it. my 18th birthday wishes are I get good score in national examination I've done and then I can continue my study at university i want of course. I wish that my wishes will be come true so, I can make my parents proud of me. older than before must be adult and leaving my childhood anymore. aha! thanks for little surprise to me from my Persik's friends I love you so damn much! thanks for all your pray guys! JESUS bless you all always.that's unforgotten moment for the last Persik. once again thanks for everything to me JESUS CHRIST! I'M BLESSED!

New Older Brother

hey guys! long time no write on my blog lol how are you? do you miss me? hahaha I hope that you will not bored to read my blog guys sorry I'm busy about my school I must pass some try out test and exam please pray for my graduation exam ya guys and pray for my university too cause I'm so scarred about that okay, I will share something here for now umm, remember him? yes, he and his girlfriend are really break up now and he told me that he was so disappoint and depressed I'm so sad to see it he loved her but she isn't poor you sorry to see it :( but life must go on and see? now she's already forget you so why you still can't forget her? show her that you can! your life just not about her and love dude and now our relationship better than before again right? but I feel that you're a little bad change to me and I don't know why I know and I can feel it don't lie I like to be your sister cause now we are really like brother and sister I'm so glad that you want to be my older brother cause I've never have older brother before and I always smile when you call me little sister I don't wanna someone else call me like that except you thank you yaa I hope I can make you happy older brother :) although not like her I will try to do the best

waktu dia dateng sih ngerasanya biasa aja tapi jujur lama kelamaan semua itu jadi luar biasa. dia yang selalu support dan menghibur. dia yang selalu marah marah. dia yang selalu ngomel ngomel nggak jelas. dia yang sok sok-an. semuanya lah. semuanya yang ada di dirinya. aku tau aku siapa. dan aku juga ngerti dia siapa dan kenapa dia bisa masuk ke kehidupanku. aku nggak tau dan nggak ngerti gimana caranya Tuhan. tapi yang pasti aku tau adalah ketika dia dateng, semuanya baik baik aja bahkan sangat baik. aku yang biasanya jadi stranger buat orang yang pertama kali kenal. but with him. entah lah I feel so close to him. kesan pertama kali ketika orang liat aku bilang "cuek" tapi dia. dia yang bisa bikin aku nggak seperti itu. langsung ngerasa nyaman dan yah maybe just with him I can be myself. awal deket sih ngerasa nyaman karna dia yang selalu ada buat aku kapanpun aku butuh dia. honestly, I'd never feel so close to someone at the first time we know each other! tapi mungkin Tuhan memang punya rencana lain, rencana yang luar biasa indah for me of course. aku gatau dan ga akan pernah tau. dan sekarang aku mulai ngerti. perlahan tapi pasti semakin deket. semakin ngerasa nyaman. aku tau semua tentang dia maybe dan bahkan sebaliknya. aku sadar diri kok ketika temenku bilang "who are you, me? he has a girlfriend! wake up!" hey I did! I realize but I can't go from this.until one day, his girlfriend know that we have a good relationship! and she was mad at him. I know about her feeling cause I'm a girl too. but how? I don't know what should I do. I want to go away from him but he stopped me and ask me to stay! GOD give me the best choice please. I want to do the best what I can but I won't to hurt someone! when I'm gone, their relationship will be okay but how about him? okay that's so difficult to decided. pass the time he said : thanks for entertain me, my sister :) and what? sister? okay I know! since that time, our relationship more bad and bad again. I don't know why. I just can do the best for everyone. his happiness is her not me. maybe it's the best for me, him, and her :) but thank you for coloring my life although just a while :)

Hey guys, I'm here again :D don't be bored read this ya :p I just want to share about my life here okay check this out I was break up with my boyfriend and now my ex already in a relationship again with his ex do you understand what I mean ? if you don't it's okay forget it lol and you know what when I'm single my another ex close to me again suddenly , he ask me to be his girlfriend again his name is Edho Aditya Pratama and I receive him again I trust him will change be better than before and the end I know he love her and I love my boy we can learn if don't judge your ex don't say bad word for them they are ever be your happiness be your life part

ngelupain seseorang yang pernah jadi bagian dari kehidupan kita itu susah bahkan cenderung nggak bisa kenangan indah dan masa sulit di hadapi bersama semua itu akan selalu terekam indah di otak dan tersimpan di hati aku yang kini telah hilang dari pandanganmu aku yang kini tak lagi menjadi bagian hidupmu apa kabar ? aku disini masih belum bisa melupakan kamu tapi aku bisa merelakan kamu bersama dia kok tenang aja ngelupain kamu itu susah banget tapi kalo di suruh inget apa aja yang udah kita lalui bersama aku bisa dengan mudah dan cepat membuka lembaran masa masa itu aneh ? iyaa emang aneh tapi inilah aku aku yang tak bisa melupakanmu dan yang selalu mengingatmu bukan siapa siapa untukmu mungkin tak sedikitpun bayanganku di otak dan hatimu tapi tidak denganku berbahagialah disana bersamanya tapi jangan pernah lupakan aku , masa lalumu :)